Betrayal

What do you mean I can't trust anyone?

Why do I have to keep things to myself forever more?

How is it no one takes care of their own house

Before going in to someone else's

Now I must find my own path

Now I must rely on my own choices

To guide myself through the darkness

For fear of being betrayed again

The pain is there

So is the fear

Why can't I bring anyone near my heart?

They claim to understand

But all they want is to control

To insinuate and regulate

Now I must find my own path

Now I must rely on my own choices

To guide myself through the darkness

For fear of being betrayed again

I thought I had left the darkness

Finally to break free of this haunting night

Funny when I stopped to smell the roses

All that crap came back to me

Now I must find my own path

Now I must rely on my own choices

To guide myself through the darkness

For fear of being betrayed again

Why have you betrayed me?

Was I not good enough?

Or strong enough

It seems I was convient enough

Or is it you who is betrayed

Now I must find my own path

Now I must rely on my own choices

To guide myself through the darkness

For fear of being betrayed again

Sorry if this has been said earlier....What does it matter what Mr. Martin was doing that night, what does it matter what Mr. Zimmerman was doing that night....What matters is that inexorably 2 families are changed forever, our nation is once again being divided by painful memories of OUR shared past...What matters is not the armchair quarterbacking that is going on right now...what matters is what WE are going to do about it....How are WE going to fix this situation so that WE ALL can live in peace....I know in my heart we have such great potential....Can we stop the mud slinging and hate mongering long enough to start a true dialogue....Can we agree to disagree and treat each other with respect, love and kindness that we all deserve?

late autumn

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Something I realized…..

I was just looking at some old photos of Schwabach and realized that I should have never left Germany….

It was one of the few places that felt ‘right’…….

I know that if I hadn’t PCS’d to Ft. Hood, I would probably still be on active duty today….

The one thing I realized that had changed my life forever was this….

“I do solemnly swear that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice. So help me God.”….

When I got to Hood, I was so home sick for Schwabach that I acted up and got stupid.

And forgot those words….I found them again and never will I cast them aside any more.

But I also know that everything happens for a reason…..

So thank you to the Marine…yes a Marine….for helping me to remember, who I was and what I stood for……